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Archive for March, 2006

Please pray for me.

By ⋅ March 29, 2006 ⋅ One comment

OK, I have been putting off posting because I guess I am not wanting to write what I am feeling. But, I know that you all are faithful to pray and if I want prayers for what I am going through than I must tell you how I am doing. Lately the feelings of sadness [...]

Doing well.

By ⋅ March 26, 2006 ⋅ One comment

Hello all.  John and I are doing well the last few days.  This weekend we spent some time together as a family and with my family hiking.  Elise really enjoyed the time.  Saturday we went together to Wal-Mart and bought new paint for Elise’s room (as well as a mirror, which she informed us she [...]

Answered prayer!

By ⋅ March 23, 2006 ⋅ 5 comments

Good news!  We got TEFRA for Emma.  I received her new medicaid number in the mail yesterday as well as a phone call from DHS.  For those of you who didn’t hear what TEFRA is, it is a program to get medicaid to disabled children whose parents wouldn’t otherwise qualify.  It goes back to mid-August [...]

Overwhelmed.

By ⋅ March 20, 2006 ⋅ One comment

I haven’t posted in awhile, because it is hard for me to know right now what to post.  I am overwhelmed right now by a lot of conflicting emotions and haven’t even felt the strength many days to process things.  For those of you that saw me on Sunday, I am sorry that I was [...]

Genetics results.

By ⋅ March 15, 2006 ⋅ Post a comment

Emma’s geneticist called me personally today. He said that Emma’s FISH test (the second blood test) came back with nothing remarkable. The skin cells (we had asked them to take a skin sample the day of Emma’s death and send it to the genetics lab) did not grow so that test was unsuccessfull. So basically [...]

Waves.

By ⋅ March 13, 2006 ⋅ 3 comments

I have determined that for now grief comes in waves.  Every week, in fact every day, is different.  Some days I am emotional and very close to tears, the next day I am very much in control and can’t even cry that much even if I want to.  Saturday was an emotional day and I [...]

Sadness fills my heart.

By ⋅ March 9, 2006 ⋅ Post a comment

I am feeling very sad today. This wave of sadness began yesterday when I suddenly became very angry unexpectedly while tearing up a piece of paper. I lost it and started crying and just telling God that I want Emma back. I know I can’t have her back and I know that I do want [...]

How we are doing.

By ⋅ March 6, 2006 ⋅ 2 comments

We had a very good relaxing weekend.  I actually didn’t even cry that much.  But Sunday for some reason was hard for me and today is also a little bit hard.  Mostly I am just feeling tired and a little irritable.  I am going to try to take a nap today and I have lots [...]

Crying

By ⋅ March 2, 2006 ⋅ 2 comments

I wanted to post today to let you know how I am feeling and becuase I know that this helps me to process things. Since the memorial services the days have been harder for me. Well, actually it is the nights. Most of the day I am fine, though sad. Once the sun goes down [...]

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