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April 25, 2006.

By ⋅ April 25, 2006 ⋅ 2 comments

I realized tonight that the last time I posted was fairly depressing, so I just wanted to let everyone know that we are doing much better.  The waves of sadness hit hard when they do hit, but don’t last long.  It seems like the sadness, when it is there, is much deeper than it was [...]

A dream of Emma

By ⋅ April 20, 2006 ⋅ 3 comments

I dreamed of Emma last night for the first time in awhile.  For the first few days after her death I dreamed of her every night.  So needless to say, I was a very sad this morning.  In my dream she was not in heaven, rather I had seemingly deserted her to someone else to [...]

Our “Exciting” Afternoon.

By ⋅ April 17, 2006 ⋅ 2 comments

Well, I had an interesting afternoon today.  Elise was in bed for a nap, but not sleeping, rather playing in bed.  I heard a thump and crying so I headed down to give her a hug as I figured she had just fallen out of bed.  When I got to her room, she was climbing [...]

Easter 2006.

By ⋅ April 17, 2006 ⋅ One comment

I thought everyone would be glad to know that my Easter was wonderful.  John, Elise, and I took some flowers to Emma’s grave before church.  That morning I had been thinking how wonderful Easter must be in heaven with all the angels singing praises.  I mentioned this to Elise and told her that Emma was [...]

A conversation with Elise:

By ⋅ April 13, 2006 ⋅ 2 comments

“Elise, on Easter Sunday we are going to get up really early and get dressed, you get to wear your dancing skirt and maybe we can curl our hair.” “Are we going to dance?” “Yes, we can dance.  Then we are going to the cemetery and put pretty flowers on Emma’s grave for Emma.” “But [...]

God’s goodness and my selfishness.

By ⋅ April 11, 2006 ⋅ 2 comments

I just had to get on and write today as something wonderful happened.  I came home this afternoon from a long day of testing homeschoolers with my Mom and saw a small package in my mailbox.  Instantly I thought of my greatly anticipated bracelet.  I waited to open the package until the other mail was [...]

Easter

By ⋅ April 6, 2006 ⋅ Post a comment

I am excited about Easter coming. I am actually surprised that I can write that as I am also anticipating a very hard time that day. I was planning (whether a realistic expectation or not I am not sure) that Emma would be joining us in church Easter Sunday. Even if I had to order [...]

April 3, 2006.

By ⋅ April 3, 2006 ⋅ One comment

Thank you all for praying.  I have been doing a bit better lately, but sometimes I wonder if it is because I seriously am progressing, or if I am just repressing things.  I do know that God did give me some good thoughts that helped to counteract the feelings of guilt.  I just took a [...]

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