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Memorial Day.

By ⋅ May 30, 2006 ⋅ Post a comment

We all enjoyed a great Memorial Day weekend.  John was excited to actually get Memorial Day off (possibly a first for him).  Sunday we spent with the rest of the Millers and company from Panama.  Elise is enjoying having a playmate for the week-Lucia.  Monday, John and I took Elise mini-golfing.  She loved it and [...]

Weakness.

By ⋅ May 23, 2006 ⋅ One comment

It has been hard for me to post lately.  I have not felt very strong or very insightful.  In fact I have been feeling attacked by the evil one with doubts and confusion.  But I realized that it would be meaningful to you all for me to be honest with you, even when I am [...]

Sometimes I wish.

By ⋅ May 19, 2006 ⋅ Post a comment

Sometimes I Wish Sometimes I wish I could go back in time. Sometimes I wish I were in Little Rock sitting by my daughter’s bedside. Sometimes I wish Emma had been perfectly healthy, but not often. Sometimes I wish I had a baby (preferably Emma) to show off to other women. Sometimes I wish people [...]

Be Still.

By ⋅ May 19, 2006 ⋅ 2 comments

“Be still and know that I am God.” Ps. 46:10a Be Still I am God in the good times. I am God in the bad times. I am God when you feel sick. I am God when you are well. I am God inside and outside. I am God when you sit and when you [...]

Emma’s roses.

By ⋅ May 15, 2006 ⋅ One comment

  Here is the last blooming rose on Emma’s rosebush.  The name of this rose is Angel Breath.  Aren’t they beautiful?  The bush was given to me in honor of Emma by my Aunt Cindy.

Mother’s Day.

By ⋅ May 15, 2006 ⋅ One comment

Thank you all who acknowledged my sorrow as well as my joy on Mother’s Day. Yesterday not only marked the first Mother’s Day after Emma’s death, but it was also the day she would have been 10 months old. I actually hadn’t thought that much about it, so I didn’t expect it to be that [...]

May 8, 2006.

By ⋅ May 8, 2006 ⋅ One comment

We are trying to get caught up after a busy weekend.  Liza, Ben, and Megan all graduated Saturday, along with some others we know as well.  Yesterday, Elise and I got to enjoy a quiet day out at Grandma’s, while unfortunately John had to stay home and get some work done.  Continue to pray that [...]

Updated posts.

By ⋅ May 5, 2006 ⋅ Post a comment

I spent some time this afternoon transferring the rest of the posts of Emma’s hospital stays from our old site to the new blog.  So if you haven’t read the whole story and wanted to, all the posts should be available on this blog now.  You can visit pages of each of Emma’s trips, or [...]

Reflection.

By ⋅ May 4, 2006 ⋅ One comment

Emma is coming to mind a lot more these days.  Where as before I could go on for several days without really thinking of her, now any little thing is enough to bring her to mind.  I enjoy this reflection in a way, but it also means more tears, and sometimes a little bit of [...]

“Why?”

By ⋅ May 1, 2006 ⋅ Post a comment

I realize now that almost every day I utter that word from the depths of my heart: “Why, Lord.  Why did you take my baby?”  I don’t really mean it literally, because it all seems so clear to me why Emma is not here.  How can I question the sovereignty of the Lord when my [...]

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